Falling in love with life again

This week was a strange week for me just after I said goodbye to that person I loved. He's gone with someone else, after he has been searching when he said he wasn't so, after such a dissapointment, I realised that I was left alone already and that friendship he asked for was not possible. People want to have everything even when it means suffering for the other one. Very selfish.

Whatever, I am here today to talk about new feelings arising. After my two weeks off work and university, I have been busy going back to my routine, and it wasn't as bad as people think, after all, routine sometimes is a kind of discipline we need in order to maintain things going and working ok, otherwise chaos come to mess it up.

It took me few days to stop crying, and this happened with a little help of my friends, going to the pub as we normally do on tuesdays, having people visiting to have a nice food and conversation, going to the office and spend time with papers, books, essays, new projects. Life has come to life, hahahah. Also, few of my friends, those who although can't hang around often, but trully care, have told me beautiful things I needed to think about myself, which might have been forgotten too.

Music is playing a very important role here. Going to see friend playing and singing has cheered me up! I love dancing, and even when my back is still in pain after that stupid accident at home, I try to enjoy dancing, as this is something that happens when the soul is happy listening to great tunes. The atmosphere at the cavern at nights can be great, and all aquaintances, nice ones, jump with me and sing!

Another important thing this week has been my long chats online with my mum, who has also been sad for a lot of things, for a very long time. I am helping her to overcome such things by reading books to her when using the microphone, so we talk, laugh and it seems to be working for her and for me.

Yesterday I went back to work, and I really enjoyed it. I just wish to meet someone new soon, so I have companion to go and do things I love, I hope to meet someone who likes things I like, so I don't feel bad going to places he doesn't want to go to with me, someone who doesn't want me to change my hair color or style, doens't want me to be skinny like a stick just because he can't stand curvy girls, someone who likes me just the way I am, sexy, with my own Betty Boop style, which I love.

If anyone reads me today, I wish you guys have a happy day. Today is a brand new day and everyday will be from this day on!