A new life starts today

Today I travelled to sort some stuff in London. Last week was the worst week I have had this year ever! After being in hospital, sick at home and sad after so much dissapointment and anger, I am recovering from it and decided to spend a lot of time on my own.

I have come across a decision to heal my currect pain. I know I also made mistakes, but when you have been hurt you tend to do things to hurt that person, which is what I did. I regret some things I said but who can help me drop this feelings? They are still there and they hurt!

Tomorrow I am going back home after 2 days off. I needed them. I have come to realise so many things and now is time to start all brand new, no more mistakes from angry and hasty decisions. As I am not good with relationships and company, I will take time to be alone, not as a punishment but as a time to meditate and grow.

I am sad that Carl has gone forever. But maybe one day forgiveness will be there between us and we might be friends.

I hope one day I get to know Mr Right or Mr Meant to be. He might be somewhere and I am waiting for him to come into my life...